Saturday, September 26, 2009

"Charity Never Faileth"

So just a couple of things to say before I get on my regular soapbox First and foremost I was so excited to hear today that Wayne and Jeanna brought the baby home this week, I can't even imagine the stress or any other emotion you must have under those circumstances. Yay and congratulations!!!
Second of all I still don't know how to post any pictures or add tabs or anything to this blog thing and to be honest It is getting a little tiresome so we shall see how much longer I can hang in here to get it all figured out. ( Don't worry I still get confused logging into the blog as well) yes it has been confirmed I am crazy!
So I had the pleasure of sharing the evening with My beautiful mom and 2 of my sister in laws, and, although we missed the rest of the "Mendenhall" girls clan, it was great company and I was spiritually enlightened.
I have to say that I normally love going to womens conference so knowing that I am able to be spiritually fed by the words of what I firmly believe are latter day Prophets, Seers and Revelators I also am blessed enough to see, even if it is only a small piece of the behind the scenes, of how the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day saints is guided by the spirit. In the church we belong to it is amazing to see how the men, the leaders the "head" are so committed to the work of women, and they respect us enough to teach us the workings and the teachings that they too learn, nothing is a secret, nothing is left out. it all seems ti be clear and incredible.
As I sat in the meeting and listened to the great women whom we are lucky enough to call our leader, our teachers our friends, each from different families, different backgrounds and different circumstances it became clear to me that yes we are indeed blessed, the "society" that we belong to really does bring "relief" I am not perfect in fact I am the farthest thing from it but I am indeed guided by those who want me to strive to be so, I feel like tears are litterally shed by those who sacrifice so much for me so that I am not lost that I am not alone that I am taken care of. crazy as it seems I truely believe that these things actually happen. i'm not saying I don't have rough days, months or even years, all I am saying is there is someone out there somwhere that is ready to serve me, to love me unconditionally, and to try to find me when I am lost! Amazing isn't it! I don't even feel like I am coming down off a spiritual high I just feel like everything that I have always known is being confirmed daily.
I am so lucky to be a part of the family that I am a part of and I feel like(quite possibly for the first time in my life) that I am in the right place at the right time! This is a good place to be, maybe a little bit scary but a good place no less. I know there will always be ups and downs but, I will always have the knowledge somwhere deep inside me that things are looking up, getting better and I have a big brother to carry me in the times that i need Him to.
I will now getoff the soap box that I have and I realize that this blog is nothing more then words for me to have, theat once i publish this post it gets lost in cyberspace and the only one reading is me. that's enough, that's all I need to know that I can come back to this day and remember that I at onetime ion my life was in the right place at the right time. Good Night
*hopefully I will soon figure out how to post pics and all that goodness so I can also have the memories of why I knew the thing I typed.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

It's Decided

So, I realize that maybe I am a cynical person, but its official...I hate people! Yep! I know most people who know me, know I feel this way but the truth is people suck! Is there nice people out there? Is there hope for my sweet baby girl. How will she survive it? Is there any good in mankind? Hopefully I will see it...someday!!!

Monday, September 14, 2009


Have you ever had one of those days where you miss someone so much it simply hurts? I think I am there today and I can't figure it out. Its so random and bizarre. I am happy here, there are things that could definitely be better burt why do I always tend to go back to the what ifs of it all? So many things to think about when you have time during the day (which I don't think I ever have had until recently) makes me want to be a better person, example and everything so I am in the right place at the right time and all the things I don't understand will be eventually understood. Eventually I will see the error of my ways and feel guilty but for now, for this moment, I wonder what might have been? If I had made different decisions? If I had been more righteous? If I made sure people knew that I know I am a daughter of God? Where would my family and I be? Who would we be? Crazy thoughts ! Anyway thats all good night!

Friday, September 11, 2009


Today as I think about the events that made such a huge effect on our country I also try to remember the effects it had on me and I wonder has it effected the person I have become? I realize that I am a person who tends to not trust people. I wouldn't by any means say that occured on the day of September 11, 2001 but because of a series of events that have happened to me over my life time from my years in high school and on. I find myself wanting to share me with less and less people. Those of you that know me and I mean really have a sence of who I am probably are confused at this moment but those of you whom are my friends I thank you and my Heavenly Father each day that some how you found me, you somehow broke through the mirage that I put out there and became someone that I can trust and that I truely care for. I thank the Lord daily for the blessing of the friends and family that I have to do as much.
I constantly think of the song "where were you when the world stopped turning" adn I litterally cry each and every time I hear it, I think of day that changed the fate of our country and I wonder what could or can I be doing daily to be the best that I know how, to be the daughter that my parents raised, to be the wife and mother that my husband and daughter deserve and ultimatly to show that I truly belive that I am a daughter of God. How can I be a better sister, friend, wife, mother. I pray for strength not only for me and my family but those that I have chosen to call my friends and that have so generously called me the same.
Now I am rambling on but I am so grateful for the men and women who serve this Country, with out a second thought, I am humbled by those who are willing to make the ultimate sacrifice for me and my family and I pray daily for those soldier and there families. I only hope that one day I too can be so brave and stop being so selfish and sacrife more, want less, become a kinder and gentler person and most importantly teach Bryton how to be the women she can be but most importanly teach her that she too is a daughter, a princess of a Heavenly Father that loves her unconditionally.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009


SO today we started the 2nd week of preschool and I love it, however I have one problem child in the class and wouldn't ya know it, it's mine. she just can't get used to the idea of sharing me I mean she hasn't had to for 4 years why does she have to start now right? This statement isn't exactly tru since somehow I am the built in babysitter for teh family so she has had to share me for way more then 2 and 1/2 hours of her day 3 days a week plus I worked up until February. Who knew that my child would be the one that gives me the most trouble. Today she...well, I had to wake her up at 8:50 preshool starts at 9:00 are you kidding with me. she cried because she wanted cereal and then I didn't put in enough milk, and then it needed to be in a different bowl, are you serious, and then she needed a drink to go with it. What in the world. she doesn't eat like this on days that she wakes up at 6:30 in the morning why did today have to be so difficult?

Monday, September 7, 2009

Hi there, well it is midnight here at our house and I have decided to start a little blog not sure what I am doing and hoping I can figure it out over the next few days but here it goes, anyone out there want to wish me luck?
So today was Labor day yesterday we discussed what Labor day is, I thouoght it had to do with the millitary, not sure but maybe I need to google to get it figures out. I didn't do much work today, unlike Trish man she got up at 4 am and realized that she didn't have to work today (luckily she works from home) but that didn't stop her, nope, she worked her little heart out to get the house clean. Way to go Trish! Big high5 from me.
Chris had the day off he woke up and cleaned the kitchen, but he took it a little further then that, he decided that he needed to make it his on personal mission to rid our home of bom bom bom FLIES. I think he was enjoying it way more then he wants to admit and I must say. he did pretty darn good! Thanks babes and a big high5 to you too!
We did get to spend time with the family today we love that even if we all talk to much except Tiff she's thwe quiet one interesting as she is probably the smartest one, maybe we should all take the cue from her, I guess a big high5 is deserved in that case as well.
I guess it's pretty sad when all i have to report is the fact that I sat on my big lazy bum today. maybe as I get the hang of blogging I will find more interesting things to post and more interesting comments will be made. good night all!!